Nighttime Musings..

I've been reading this book called The Pilgrimage and it's taught me about this kind of love which overcomes everything and is universal and envelopes the person inside that they want to share it too. That's the kind of love I'm feeling right now. Actually, I have this crazy idea of going on a Pilgrimage when I get older, and in the process try to "find myself". Then I realized life is a pilgrimage in itself, it helps you find yourself and makes you learn things. The thing is, life can be a trash can or a pilgrimage. You can just sit by and do nothing and look at life as nothing more than a colorless, boring thing covered by four walls or you can try to learn more about yourself by searching deep down in your soul and reach out to it. In this way, you'll be able to grasp life in its real perspective. I think life is all about finding who you really are, I don't think school matters, I don't believe that you can't be successful if you aren't well educated. I believe all you need is faith and the soul, and everything will work itself out in the end.

After that reflection part, I guess I still I wanna write some more. I've realized that I'm super (UBER) falling for her na. Our relationship hasn't changed, I mean, we've grown pretty close na, but she just has something I can't explain which makes you fall in love with her. Maybe one day I'll look back on this day and find the right words to express what I'm feeling. Then again, don't count on it coz I don't think I'll ever find the right words to express what it is I love about her. It's everything, maybe, or it could be something so rare that I myself can't see. All I know is, I want to be with her, I want to be the one to miss her, I want to be the one who holds her hand when she's down, I want to be the one to hug her and whisper sweet-nothings to her ear for no apparent reason, Then at this very moment, my mind tells me: "HUY.. You're in love. ACCEPT IT." If this is love, If this is real, Then let it envelop me. Pain? Kaya.. Suffering? It's not like I haven't experienced that before.. To be with her I'll hurt a million times.. :)