WAH!

I don't know what it is that makes me miss High School so much. I'm not really busy. I'm not stressed. I have someone to go with every single day. I'm surrounded by friends. But there's just something about High School I can't put my finger on.

I talked with Zerge and Jet a few hours ago and we agreed that College is really different because it takes a lot of adjusting. From being the most experience in the school to being the lost freshman. I just find this utterly amazing. Also, we were rambling about the mystery behind every College class. It's like you don't know what will happen in everything, because anything CAN happen. This is the first time I'm actually scared to step into a class because there might be something I can't do or something I never would dare do. And teachers are really drop dead boring (except for my English class because our teachers are pretty young). [Maam, if you're reading this, I didn't write this down because it's something I wanted you to hear, it's the truth. :)] It's like these old teachers expect us to just copy notes to know more about the subject. Our teachers just talk to the board most of the time and make up weird life analogies I cannot even understand. I don't mean to be rude, but I guess I just have to question these teachers. The only way I will love to learn is if I find something tangible in learning these different topics. I don't want to listen to some old guy lecture about stuff I don't even care about. I believe it's the teacher's job to persuade the students care about the topic (and mind you, that's a very tough job)Though it is the students choice to care, it won't help if you just keep talking on and on about a boring topic. Please give me diversity. I don't expect much, just maybe at least a little class participation here and there, maybe ask a few young teachers about their methods, anything to keep me looking at you old teachers and at the board.

I need to get used to 1 hour classes too. I told some of my lab groupmates a while ago that I never had a class less than 40 minutes and now I have one that's 2 freaking hours? That's an added hour and 20 minutes to my regular 40 minute Ateneo High School class.

I also caught myself looking outside the door during lab. I thought of the million things in my head (coupled with my nagging cold). I guess my thoughts took me 2 years ago. I thought of you again and this. I thought of it and "sayang" hit me again. I dwelled on it for about 2 seconds then just took a breath. I guess I really need those kinds of moments to remind me that life does offer pain as well.

This psycho rollercoaster is just beginning. And I'm dizzy right away.

Save me.